Babies turn me ON!

Attended some meeting this morning when the lady owner brought over her extremely adorable baby girl along which got me gaping over the cuteness! Babies practically turn me ON! And when I say on, I was practically oozing & I just can't keep my eyes away from her! I was too shy to take any pictures of her even though she's very very friendly but business is still business! Given the time gap I've stop blogging, I'm going to show you my favorite person in the world, Cally girl aka my adorable, notti, love-to-eat niece!

See how grown up she is? Ahhhh! Just a random shot when we were heading out somewhere..

Can I have a baby pweetttyyy pweetttyyy pweeaassseee???

Forever & ever, Amen.

Life had gotten so difficult that at times, I can hardly find the strength to breath but life goes on, the clock goes ticking by & the world will never stop spinning just because you think that your own life is so dreadful. A very close family member of mine had just come upon his own family crisis throughout this year & it makes me learn so many things. Work is so challenging with my financial problems that I learnt more. Experiences make us learn & grow, mistakes are made into valuable lessons & success are turned into memorable memories.

After all these happenings, close friends who knew what happened came & ask me if I still believe in marriage? My answer? Yes, of course. I know there are friends out there who had given up on loving & trusting another soul for live after being hurt through their own unique experiences. Every relationship will have its ups & downs, nobody is perfect & nobody ever will but it brings no good into bringing on the hurt that happen from the past into the future because at the end of the day, we our self will be the one who is torturing our own mental & soul. I had experienced enough nightmares to understand it. The other half of course, had to be there for us to build up the trust as well. Relationship is never about me or you but me & you.

Maybe I don't believe in forever & ever, Amen but I do believe in a relation where true love & trust exist between two different souls. Its never easy but its not impossible either.

Remember, everything in life requires the simple action of "give & take", even in relationship.

Departure Lounge

It starts off with where it ended..

Sudden urge to get back on this space of mine where I can share & post what I wanted without caring who's reading it, who's not.. Guess its a part of me & I will just go on & off on it.. Looking back at the old posts bring back some really good memories but of course, the bad ones are there too.. My life is not perfect neither am I but I tried to live it with the least regrets..

Life had been pretty hectic since I started working.. Only off days for us are Sundays & waking up for breakfast is definitely not a routine for him but I always do enjoy a nice breakfast here & there, hence the effort of him waking up earlier on this particular Sunday.. I miss the weekly breakfast we used to have back in Melbourne but I will satisfy with what I hope to be a monthly routine for now!

Departure Lounge @Soho KL, Solaris! Been to the one at Damansara but this one is definitely way better in terms of environment & eh-hem, temperature!

Order my favorite cappuccino, theirs is one of the best in Malaysia!

And a after-drink, a peach-flavored tea! Nice thing to have during hot weather for sure!

Freshly grounded mushroom soup..

5-choice breakfast.. One more reason to visit for breakfast, all their breakfast set is for you to pick & mix yourself, comes in 3-choice, 5-choice & 7-choice followed with 2 pieces of toast..

My 3-choice breakfast.. With only little money, you can upgrade your toast to english muffin & other choices! English muffin is always good to have!

Here's the reason for my recent weight gain! I tend to be satisfy with lots of food, hence extra ordering a toasted turkey ham & cheese with extra egg mayo filling in foccasia bread! I do miss their monthly specials, where there used to be toasted egg mayo & crabmeat on farmer bread! Can someone bring it back pwetty pwettyy pweeaasseee!

Am back :)

Departure Lounge @ Solaris for English style brekkie with the other half. Don't ask me why, but this is the perfect place to start blogging back *I bet Ashley Yeow could figure out why* So much had happened in my life for the half year back. Don't know where to start, where to end. Guessed I had moved on to another stage in life & is still adapting to it. This place bring back fond memories though. Remember the last time I was at this place, more than a year ago, with one of my darlings, about 2 weeks before I departed off to Melbourne for that another stage of life.......

Well that was long time ago.. :)

Just another piece of mind

I've a million things in mind.

But these days, I'm becoming forgetful & finding it harder & harder to express it in the right words.

Been going through so many, a little too much if you ask me, ups & downs these days, mostly downs but yet they teach me lessons that I never expect I'll learn..

Through this lessons, I saw the goods & the bads, the constants & the changes, the people who truly care & those who are good-for-nothings..

And never forget all the unexpected surprises that sprung up from all these, friendships I never expect, a boyf that proves otherwise, people's capability of doing more than I expected, both good & bad..

I pray for a better day each day, hoping the downfall will take a turn & heads back up.. Hope keeps me going on, love keeps me strong, endless care & support keeps me breathing, lessons that keeps me learning..

Making a better me :)

[I truly miss the capability of smiling straight from the bottom, smiles are something I had to plaster on my outlook these days but I'm sure, one day, I'll be able to smile once again & have my lessons learnt, making everything more precious than ever. Thanks for all the support my friends & the boyf had given me these days despite the family dramas I'm going through now. Praying & working hard to make it better.]

Valentine's Day 2010♥

Know its a little too late to blog about Valentine, but am caught up with tons of messed up family affairs these days.. Not to forget 2 jobs & part-time studies can be killing enough for me.. That leaves me with practically no life provided I "snake" a little bit here & there! I'm definitely not going into my family affair right here, right now as it could keep me going for days & this post, like the first date one, was a memory to myself, a post dedicated to you neverless, for making me one of the happiest girl on Earth, not only for that day, but every moment with you.

I could remember how stressed I was that weekend, how many silly times I cried over the phone *Yes, I admit I'm a cry baby but its one of my best way to de-stress & I definitely recommend you people to try it out =P* You was really sweet about it, coo-ing, soothing me all the way & rode my emotional roller coaster with me :) On Sunday afternoon, during my research visits, you called me up, surprising me with an early Valentine date. Why surprised if you ask me? Many girls out there would had expect their boyfriend to celebrate anniversaries, Valentine's day, Christmas, etc. with them but never mine. He's the down-to-Earth-kind, never giving a damn on what festive it is, treating everyday as just another day to be cherished & loved. I was on the verge of cancelling the date as I was breaking down anytime due to stress & tiredness. But I went along :)

Brought me to Gobo Upstairs Lounge & Grill @Traders Hotel. Gobo is one of the hot spot around city for Valentine's Day for 2 - 3 years in a row according to the boyf. 2nd surprised, he did some serious research *so not him.. ahem!*

Valentine's Day menu is on for the Sunday as the following day would be the real day for Valentine.

Boyf ordered Maddess Orange, similar to tropical punch with soda as he doesn't really take any sort of alcohol except on occasions where only alcohol is served =P Definitely the drink for non-drinkers, opens up your appetite & refreshing enough :)

Had my share of champagne, complimentary for couples based on the Valentine's set & of course, I took my boyf's share willingly too =P

Served with freshly baked bread with their in-house specialty butter that melts the moment its in your mouth! Thumbs up to the bread & their famous butter!!

The one & only♥

Appetizers come in pacific oysters baked with cheese and..

..pink lamb feta on rocket♥

Saint Jacques in Orange Reduction

Luck must be on my side as well as for the 2nd course, my favorite was served!

Foie Gras with Black Truffle & Apple in Wine♥♥

White waiting for the soup to be served, I'm helping myself to the champagne..

And enjoying the night view.. Too bad, the KLCC view is only available at the lounge side, not the dining side but neverless, the view is awesome♥

Blue Potato Cream with Caviar in Mascarpone

Beetroot Veloute with Duck in Horseradish Cream

Boyf busy fussing over his cufflink, his first time wearing cufflinks b'cos I insisted on buying one of the shirts with cufflinks.. Guess he's addicted to it as me right now!

Sorbet to once again, open up the diner's appetite after all the creamy soups & tasty appetizers! Definitely a good choice!

Campari Tequila Sorbet

Blue Curacao Lemon Sorbet

Chilled Sea Bass Miso with Spiced Asparagus Tempura in Yuzu Butter Sauce

Angus in Pink Pepper in Bordeaux Sauce

Guess he enjoyed the food as much as I did. Take note, all the appetizers, soups & main courses are in the set itself & couldn't be chosen. The choice is to swap between the couple themselves as the female's courses & the male's courses are completely different beside the dessert..

Dessert served!

Both desserts are meant to be shared♥

Its also called "The Climax" but to put it simpler, its a chocolate tree with all kind of chocolates.. Definitely finger-licking-good♥

And not to forget the frozen strawberry & blueberry parfait♥

Moved over to the lounge side for dessert & coffee/tea to get the full city view & comfy lounge chairs that make us reluctance to leave..

They served really good coffee too for coffee lovers.. Revised back, for STRONG coffee lovers♥

I didn't know what's with the look though.. Lol!

Both of us♥

Kisses for the boyf who made my day♥

Headed for movie next with another 3 couples last minute at Pavilion. Was choosing between Sky Bar or movie but ended up with movie. Not much energy for drinks, hence, movie seems like a better choice =P

Had one of the best sleep that night with cuddles the whole night. Thought the surprised would had ended on the Sunday, was satisfied to the max with everything, feeling at the top of the world when I sent him off to work on the next day..

And this pop in front of my house during the noon! White & cream lilies, my favourite♥♥

Boyf was never a fan of gifts, one hand would be enough to count all the gifts he had given me since together for half year & he, the one who's always insisting that flowers is a waste of money as they withers, bought me this just to cheer/surprised me!

I'm a sucker when it comes to lilies.. The second favorites will be any white/cream-colour flowers♥♥

Thanks to the boyf for every little single thing he did.. And him, being the tentative him, was there for me every single day for the past few weeks, knowing that I needed him the most with all the happening around me, showering me with endless support & shoulders & hugs & kisses & loves♥

I truly thank God for giving me a chance to be with you again after all these years apart. And I'm definitely working extra hard for a future of you & me♥

ILY♥

To blog or not to blog =/

Spent some time going through some blogs I used to read last time & it reminded me of my own non-existence blog. I wonder why I stop blogging, used to love the idea of blogging, writing whatever that was on my mind, that was bugging me to this place I call my "modern-era-diary". I realized as I grew older, I found it harder to write how I used to, how I could write anything & everything. I put restrict on myself, on what I write & only write things I thought will be okay, will be safe. And of course, the fact that I'm now working 2 jobs & taking a short course during weekend makes it all even harder. Barely had the energy & time to get online & start uploading pictures & writing up all.

But I seriously do think having a blog of my own, a place where I can leave parts & bits of memories, a place where I can look back at the path I had walked through, is wonderful. Maybe I should blog back. Or maybe not =/

Anyway, before its too late, Happy Chinese New Year & Happy belated Valentine's to my friends out there :) Cheers!

The 1st date

Been too busy to blog these days. All my time goes elsewhere & 24 hours a day is no longer enough for me :) Gotta work hard for the future I want. Choices had been made by me to carved out a future I want so now regrets from now on walking down the path I paved myself :)

Back to the topic of this post. I find myself real forgetful these days & my blog since long ago, is no longer meant for the outside world but for me myself, a place I enclosed my memories, my thoughts which I looked back from time to time. We were talking about the back-then-in-Melbourne time & before I forget even a tiny weeny bit of details *which I already did* I just wanted to write down what I still remember so far because this is something that I never want to forget.

I already managed to forget the date (maybe 19th or 20th of August) which I can only say falls on the day Kenry had one of his small birthday drinking session at the Lion's Hostel. You made my day by asking me out for movie out of no where. We had been having conversations these days but some days you were cold, some days you were hot & I had always thought of you just like the weather in Melbourne, freaking unpredictable & crazy though I know the reason behind your act. I was debating deep down if I should go out with you because I know your still not over her but yet I still go for it, no idea why, just knew it was something I want.. Took the tram down to the city, all the way thinking of a lot of "what ifs" & at the same time, giving all sort of excuses to myself saying it's just a friendly thing *since I go out to movies with my guy friends as well*.

Reached Melbourne Central & waited for you as you were dragged for after dinner ice cream by your friends *though you don't eat ice cream*. You called me when you reached, went to meet you up & I was feeling really awkward deep down but tried to act cool =P Brought you together to meet up with my dearest guy friend in Melbourne aka Kenry Lo who was drinking in Lion Hostel & had birthday shots with him which warm me down a lil' & gave me some courage as well! Both of us headed for the cinema after, you bought tickets for Salt earlier on*well, we're debating heavily last night which was the first movie we watched together, you win kies!* so we spent time browsing through upcoming movies & was surprised when you told me you will accompany me again to watch Avatar *since you already watched it* as I haven't watched yet. Yes, I'm a totally outdated person. Shoot me! Didn't knew you planned on going out again with me & you made it sound truly promising =P

"Movie.. Movie.. Movie.." Ding ding! Done with movie, didn't go anywhere after, had to catch the last few trains back home.. Though it was really sweet of you :) You definitely made my day! And I was on a high back home for no reasons.. Must be the cupid shooting arrows here & there

Just another day.

I guess its a tradition to start & end today's post with the greeting Merry Christmas. I never mind holla-ing this greeting to the world out there, to all my love ones wishing them a very Merry Jolly Xmas but I guess there's people out there, friends I know, that feels the same way like I do now. Christmas is no merry this year, no festive for us. I guess each & everyone have their own reason for feeling the way we do right now.

Just felt that all festive season, Christmas, birthdays, etc. is a game life played on me these days. Guess its time to adapt to this huh? Is definitely riding on an emotional rollercoaster right now.

Merry Christmas people :(

Every Time I Close My Eyes by Babyface

The first song that you gave me, a song that you brand how you feel about me & you on our 1st monthsary. Just want to tell you, I feel the exactly the same way like you do.

"Every time I close my eyes, I thank the Lord that I've got you & you got me too"
"Every time I think of it, I pinch myself cos I don't believe it's true
That someone like you love me too"

I still remember the time when you called me & told me you love the song no.5 on my CD that the car was playing while you were on your way to university. You said you repeated it all the way to & back from uni & I was laughing at your capability of knowing the whole song's lyrics & its meaning. And then you told me:

You: "I don't really understand the whole song yet. Its part of the song that capture my attention to it, making me feeling like to dedicate it to you."
Me: "Huh? Which part?"
You: "The chorus, the every time blah blah blah part.."
Me: "Are you sure its not a heartbroken song but a love song?"
You: "Ergh.. I'm sure I guess.. I couldn't be wrong on lyrics as simple as that.."
Me: "Sure boh? I doubt you. *I knew what song it was by then* I still think its a heartbroken song.."
You: *Starting to have your own doubts..* "Hrmmm.. I still think its a love song & I'm sure I feel the way they sang it on the chorus!"

The following conversation was too silly & private then. But its definitely part of something I'll remember till the day I'm old & frail. Gonna keep this beginning part as a trigger if I ever forget :)

[Was listening to this song all the way back while I was driving alone. I was smiling silly to myself, thinking of me & you♥]