Just another piece of mind

I've a million things in mind.

But these days, I'm becoming forgetful & finding it harder & harder to express it in the right words.

Been going through so many, a little too much if you ask me, ups & downs these days, mostly downs but yet they teach me lessons that I never expect I'll learn..

Through this lessons, I saw the goods & the bads, the constants & the changes, the people who truly care & those who are good-for-nothings..

And never forget all the unexpected surprises that sprung up from all these, friendships I never expect, a boyf that proves otherwise, people's capability of doing more than I expected, both good & bad..

I pray for a better day each day, hoping the downfall will take a turn & heads back up.. Hope keeps me going on, love keeps me strong, endless care & support keeps me breathing, lessons that keeps me learning..

Making a better me :)

[I truly miss the capability of smiling straight from the bottom, smiles are something I had to plaster on my outlook these days but I'm sure, one day, I'll be able to smile once again & have my lessons learnt, making everything more precious than ever. Thanks for all the support my friends & the boyf had given me these days despite the family dramas I'm going through now. Praying & working hard to make it better.]

Valentine's Day 2010♥

Know its a little too late to blog about Valentine, but am caught up with tons of messed up family affairs these days.. Not to forget 2 jobs & part-time studies can be killing enough for me.. That leaves me with practically no life provided I "snake" a little bit here & there! I'm definitely not going into my family affair right here, right now as it could keep me going for days & this post, like the first date one, was a memory to myself, a post dedicated to you neverless, for making me one of the happiest girl on Earth, not only for that day, but every moment with you.

I could remember how stressed I was that weekend, how many silly times I cried over the phone *Yes, I admit I'm a cry baby but its one of my best way to de-stress & I definitely recommend you people to try it out =P* You was really sweet about it, coo-ing, soothing me all the way & rode my emotional roller coaster with me :) On Sunday afternoon, during my research visits, you called me up, surprising me with an early Valentine date. Why surprised if you ask me? Many girls out there would had expect their boyfriend to celebrate anniversaries, Valentine's day, Christmas, etc. with them but never mine. He's the down-to-Earth-kind, never giving a damn on what festive it is, treating everyday as just another day to be cherished & loved. I was on the verge of cancelling the date as I was breaking down anytime due to stress & tiredness. But I went along :)

Brought me to Gobo Upstairs Lounge & Grill @Traders Hotel. Gobo is one of the hot spot around city for Valentine's Day for 2 - 3 years in a row according to the boyf. 2nd surprised, he did some serious research *so not him.. ahem!*

Valentine's Day menu is on for the Sunday as the following day would be the real day for Valentine.

Boyf ordered Maddess Orange, similar to tropical punch with soda as he doesn't really take any sort of alcohol except on occasions where only alcohol is served =P Definitely the drink for non-drinkers, opens up your appetite & refreshing enough :)

Had my share of champagne, complimentary for couples based on the Valentine's set & of course, I took my boyf's share willingly too =P

Served with freshly baked bread with their in-house specialty butter that melts the moment its in your mouth! Thumbs up to the bread & their famous butter!!

The one & only♥

Appetizers come in pacific oysters baked with cheese and..

..pink lamb feta on rocket♥

Saint Jacques in Orange Reduction

Luck must be on my side as well as for the 2nd course, my favorite was served!

Foie Gras with Black Truffle & Apple in Wine♥♥

White waiting for the soup to be served, I'm helping myself to the champagne..

And enjoying the night view.. Too bad, the KLCC view is only available at the lounge side, not the dining side but neverless, the view is awesome♥

Blue Potato Cream with Caviar in Mascarpone

Beetroot Veloute with Duck in Horseradish Cream

Boyf busy fussing over his cufflink, his first time wearing cufflinks b'cos I insisted on buying one of the shirts with cufflinks.. Guess he's addicted to it as me right now!

Sorbet to once again, open up the diner's appetite after all the creamy soups & tasty appetizers! Definitely a good choice!

Campari Tequila Sorbet

Blue Curacao Lemon Sorbet

Chilled Sea Bass Miso with Spiced Asparagus Tempura in Yuzu Butter Sauce

Angus in Pink Pepper in Bordeaux Sauce

Guess he enjoyed the food as much as I did. Take note, all the appetizers, soups & main courses are in the set itself & couldn't be chosen. The choice is to swap between the couple themselves as the female's courses & the male's courses are completely different beside the dessert..

Dessert served!

Both desserts are meant to be shared♥

Its also called "The Climax" but to put it simpler, its a chocolate tree with all kind of chocolates.. Definitely finger-licking-good♥

And not to forget the frozen strawberry & blueberry parfait♥

Moved over to the lounge side for dessert & coffee/tea to get the full city view & comfy lounge chairs that make us reluctance to leave..

They served really good coffee too for coffee lovers.. Revised back, for STRONG coffee lovers♥

I didn't know what's with the look though.. Lol!

Both of us♥

Kisses for the boyf who made my day♥

Headed for movie next with another 3 couples last minute at Pavilion. Was choosing between Sky Bar or movie but ended up with movie. Not much energy for drinks, hence, movie seems like a better choice =P

Had one of the best sleep that night with cuddles the whole night. Thought the surprised would had ended on the Sunday, was satisfied to the max with everything, feeling at the top of the world when I sent him off to work on the next day..

And this pop in front of my house during the noon! White & cream lilies, my favourite♥♥

Boyf was never a fan of gifts, one hand would be enough to count all the gifts he had given me since together for half year & he, the one who's always insisting that flowers is a waste of money as they withers, bought me this just to cheer/surprised me!

I'm a sucker when it comes to lilies.. The second favorites will be any white/cream-colour flowers♥♥

Thanks to the boyf for every little single thing he did.. And him, being the tentative him, was there for me every single day for the past few weeks, knowing that I needed him the most with all the happening around me, showering me with endless support & shoulders & hugs & kisses & loves♥

I truly thank God for giving me a chance to be with you again after all these years apart. And I'm definitely working extra hard for a future of you & me♥

ILY♥

To blog or not to blog =/

Spent some time going through some blogs I used to read last time & it reminded me of my own non-existence blog. I wonder why I stop blogging, used to love the idea of blogging, writing whatever that was on my mind, that was bugging me to this place I call my "modern-era-diary". I realized as I grew older, I found it harder to write how I used to, how I could write anything & everything. I put restrict on myself, on what I write & only write things I thought will be okay, will be safe. And of course, the fact that I'm now working 2 jobs & taking a short course during weekend makes it all even harder. Barely had the energy & time to get online & start uploading pictures & writing up all.

But I seriously do think having a blog of my own, a place where I can leave parts & bits of memories, a place where I can look back at the path I had walked through, is wonderful. Maybe I should blog back. Or maybe not =/

Anyway, before its too late, Happy Chinese New Year & Happy belated Valentine's to my friends out there :) Cheers!

The 1st date

Been too busy to blog these days. All my time goes elsewhere & 24 hours a day is no longer enough for me :) Gotta work hard for the future I want. Choices had been made by me to carved out a future I want so now regrets from now on walking down the path I paved myself :)

Back to the topic of this post. I find myself real forgetful these days & my blog since long ago, is no longer meant for the outside world but for me myself, a place I enclosed my memories, my thoughts which I looked back from time to time. We were talking about the back-then-in-Melbourne time & before I forget even a tiny weeny bit of details *which I already did* I just wanted to write down what I still remember so far because this is something that I never want to forget.

I already managed to forget the date (maybe 19th or 20th of August) which I can only say falls on the day Kenry had one of his small birthday drinking session at the Lion's Hostel. You made my day by asking me out for movie out of no where. We had been having conversations these days but some days you were cold, some days you were hot & I had always thought of you just like the weather in Melbourne, freaking unpredictable & crazy though I know the reason behind your act. I was debating deep down if I should go out with you because I know your still not over her but yet I still go for it, no idea why, just knew it was something I want.. Took the tram down to the city, all the way thinking of a lot of "what ifs" & at the same time, giving all sort of excuses to myself saying it's just a friendly thing *since I go out to movies with my guy friends as well*.

Reached Melbourne Central & waited for you as you were dragged for after dinner ice cream by your friends *though you don't eat ice cream*. You called me when you reached, went to meet you up & I was feeling really awkward deep down but tried to act cool =P Brought you together to meet up with my dearest guy friend in Melbourne aka Kenry Lo who was drinking in Lion Hostel & had birthday shots with him which warm me down a lil' & gave me some courage as well! Both of us headed for the cinema after, you bought tickets for Salt earlier on*well, we're debating heavily last night which was the first movie we watched together, you win kies!* so we spent time browsing through upcoming movies & was surprised when you told me you will accompany me again to watch Avatar *since you already watched it* as I haven't watched yet. Yes, I'm a totally outdated person. Shoot me! Didn't knew you planned on going out again with me & you made it sound truly promising =P

"Movie.. Movie.. Movie.." Ding ding! Done with movie, didn't go anywhere after, had to catch the last few trains back home.. Though it was really sweet of you :) You definitely made my day! And I was on a high back home for no reasons.. Must be the cupid shooting arrows here & there

Just another day.

I guess its a tradition to start & end today's post with the greeting Merry Christmas. I never mind holla-ing this greeting to the world out there, to all my love ones wishing them a very Merry Jolly Xmas but I guess there's people out there, friends I know, that feels the same way like I do now. Christmas is no merry this year, no festive for us. I guess each & everyone have their own reason for feeling the way we do right now.

Just felt that all festive season, Christmas, birthdays, etc. is a game life played on me these days. Guess its time to adapt to this huh? Is definitely riding on an emotional rollercoaster right now.

Merry Christmas people :(

Every Time I Close My Eyes by Babyface

The first song that you gave me, a song that you brand how you feel about me & you on our 1st monthsary. Just want to tell you, I feel the exactly the same way like you do.

"Every time I close my eyes, I thank the Lord that I've got you & you got me too"
"Every time I think of it, I pinch myself cos I don't believe it's true
That someone like you love me too"

I still remember the time when you called me & told me you love the song no.5 on my CD that the car was playing while you were on your way to university. You said you repeated it all the way to & back from uni & I was laughing at your capability of knowing the whole song's lyrics & its meaning. And then you told me:

You: "I don't really understand the whole song yet. Its part of the song that capture my attention to it, making me feeling like to dedicate it to you."
Me: "Huh? Which part?"
You: "The chorus, the every time blah blah blah part.."
Me: "Are you sure its not a heartbroken song but a love song?"
You: "Ergh.. I'm sure I guess.. I couldn't be wrong on lyrics as simple as that.."
Me: "Sure boh? I doubt you. *I knew what song it was by then* I still think its a heartbroken song.."
You: *Starting to have your own doubts..* "Hrmmm.. I still think its a love song & I'm sure I feel the way they sang it on the chorus!"

The following conversation was too silly & private then. But its definitely part of something I'll remember till the day I'm old & frail. Gonna keep this beginning part as a trigger if I ever forget :)

[Was listening to this song all the way back while I was driving alone. I was smiling silly to myself, thinking of me & you♥]

Top of the world♥

The last family trip we took before heading back to Malaysia, it was neverless one of the most memorable one. On a second note, every single moment spend with you is priceless & memorable♥ Decided to head up to Mount Dandenong on what I call a perfect sunny day *forgive my obsession with sunny days, it gets worst when I was in Melbourne*. First stop, Fortnums for brunch!

Lovely day it is♥
Just the kind of environment I ♥ Me like like!
Ello world♥
In Fortnums "where our expertise is still a family tradition"
Cosy interior, the perfect place for couple who're seeking out for a nice lovey-dovey ambience♥ They cater for private functions too, especially for wedding! If I ever wed in Melbourne, this would be the perfect haven for it♥
As usual, the boyf is against all sorts of make up! Being the tom boy of the house who is always a noob when it comes to make up products, I got worst after being with him!
The impatient brother waiting for his food which explain the obsession towards the iPhone..
The only mistake of the day would be this cup of Raspberry soda that taste nothing of berry but everything of cough syrup I used to had when I was young :( Should had stick to lemonade instead!
Their house famous Ploughman's Lunch that is made up of a selection of fine cheeses, sliced chicken breast, honey ham, homemade relish, pickled onion, sun dried tomatoes, kalamata olives, a side serving of salad & their freshly baked mini loaf! If you're a impatient person, never go for this b'cos MARK MY WORDS, they really baked your mini loaf on the spot when you ordered it so use your brain to figure out the time required for a mini loaf to bake & be served but its neverless superb!
The boyf being a poor fella who couldn't eat beef due to birth date related matters had Chicken Parmigana, a crumbed chicken breast topped with Napoli sauce, ham & cheese served with potato wedges & fresh salad.
My choice of the day: tender slices of roast beef served with thick gravy, roast potatoes, greens & tasty homemade chutney on the side. The gravy was indeed the best I had that taste of brown sauce made up of cranberries & plum. The traditional way just the way I ♥
And their pie is not to be ignored! Chicken & leek pie in creamy sauce, its definitely something you would want to try!
The boyf fooling around with my camera after a wonderful meal♥
Just loves it when the sun rays hits me♥
3.. 2.. 1.. Smile :)
Dessert is a must! Their Pavlova is definitely as good as it looks topped with fresh berries & double whipped cream♥
Being the sucker when it comes to pastries & baked goods, the obvious choice for me would be Devonshire Scones. The scones are so good that I ate both w'out the jam & cream. I'm craving for some nowww!! Someone fed-ex it to me pweassseee...
For desserts, we switched tables to the patio outside to get our fair share of sun & shine♥
My pillar of strength & support.
When you entered my life once again, you made me realize what I was missing out all along, the reason why I had felt empty every now & then b'cos you are the other part of me that made me feel complete♥
I thanked God everyday♥
Time to head up the mountains high above!
Introducing the driver of the day: Edward Cheng, my one & only brother♥
Enjoying the wind♥
While the boyf tries to catch a few minutes of sleep...
Don't we just love the greens?
I definitely do, but I still prefer sandy gold beaches♥
Guess the family enjoyed it as much as I do!
Favorite shot of the day, courtesy of the boyf♥ From the day we held hands & decided to walk down the path as one, our soul, like the shadow above, is connected together as one & not two.
Resting for a moment.. Tired of me dy? There's more to come!
Guess my family are all comedians♥
Bing! Bang! Boom! Too much of No Regrets I guess =_="
Piggy back ride!!!
As brother & sister, we will rule one day won't we? I love you till the end of the earth & my childhood will never be the same w'out you!
The sister-in-law's turn for piggy back ride!
Imagine having dinner on a chair this size & a matching table to the size of the chair!
Couldn't dream of days w'out you from the day you told me you love me & we decided to give this relationship another go.
Too full for another tea-session up above!
And we pay AUS$5 just for this =_=" No idea why we did, maybe we just want to feel what's it like to be at the top of the world, ahem, correction, Melbourne?

[You're my pillar of strength & support & vice-versa, I want to be the same for you. ILY for who you are & despite the dark moments, you showed me the meaning of being strong & faithful to this fragile relationship of ours. The other day when you told me all my flaws meant nothing to you b'cos you love me for who I'm took another portion of my heart away b'cos I finally found someone who love me for who I'm & not for who they want me to be.]