When I'm lost..

Wandering in the darkness is definitely not fun. Feeling utterly alone & confused is depressing. Yet, the "lost" stage is unavoidable. I'm just still another toodle toodling to find my own path, my own wants in life. Some find escape in alcohol, some find escape in drugs, some find escape even through death. For me, I find escape in traveling & my best mates, but when that option is not available, I find escape through some good, old comfort food with a good book.

Yes, I have all this to myself & I manage to finish every single one of it beside the Potato Salad which is a lil' too dry. And the book, oh well, if you ever feel you need a good book, go for it.

The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

Being awake at 4am is definitely a bad sign too. I want my beauty sleep that were once free from nightmares back! Hmppphh!

Waiting..

Staying or leaving?

Seriously so sick of waiting for the answer. I had no control over this matter at all, its all up to the hands of God but that doesn't mean I love the feeling of sitting around all day, doing nothing but waiting for the answer. It makes me feel restless. And it stress me up like mad. The only reason that I agree to leave will be a very selfish one, a chance to start all over again. So much had happened & it just drives me crazy every night, leaving me sleepless till I'm truly exhausted.

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