Just another day.

I guess its a tradition to start & end today's post with the greeting Merry Christmas. I never mind holla-ing this greeting to the world out there, to all my love ones wishing them a very Merry Jolly Xmas but I guess there's people out there, friends I know, that feels the same way like I do now. Christmas is no merry this year, no festive for us. I guess each & everyone have their own reason for feeling the way we do right now.

Just felt that all festive season, Christmas, birthdays, etc. is a game life played on me these days. Guess its time to adapt to this huh? Is definitely riding on an emotional rollercoaster right now.

Merry Christmas people :(

Every Time I Close My Eyes by Babyface

The first song that you gave me, a song that you brand how you feel about me & you on our 1st monthsary. Just want to tell you, I feel the exactly the same way like you do.

"Every time I close my eyes, I thank the Lord that I've got you & you got me too"
"Every time I think of it, I pinch myself cos I don't believe it's true
That someone like you love me too"

I still remember the time when you called me & told me you love the song no.5 on my CD that the car was playing while you were on your way to university. You said you repeated it all the way to & back from uni & I was laughing at your capability of knowing the whole song's lyrics & its meaning. And then you told me:

You: "I don't really understand the whole song yet. Its part of the song that capture my attention to it, making me feeling like to dedicate it to you."
Me: "Huh? Which part?"
You: "The chorus, the every time blah blah blah part.."
Me: "Are you sure its not a heartbroken song but a love song?"
You: "Ergh.. I'm sure I guess.. I couldn't be wrong on lyrics as simple as that.."
Me: "Sure boh? I doubt you. *I knew what song it was by then* I still think its a heartbroken song.."
You: *Starting to have your own doubts..* "Hrmmm.. I still think its a love song & I'm sure I feel the way they sang it on the chorus!"

The following conversation was too silly & private then. But its definitely part of something I'll remember till the day I'm old & frail. Gonna keep this beginning part as a trigger if I ever forget :)

[Was listening to this song all the way back while I was driving alone. I was smiling silly to myself, thinking of me & you♥]

Top of the world♥

The last family trip we took before heading back to Malaysia, it was neverless one of the most memorable one. On a second note, every single moment spend with you is priceless & memorable♥ Decided to head up to Mount Dandenong on what I call a perfect sunny day *forgive my obsession with sunny days, it gets worst when I was in Melbourne*. First stop, Fortnums for brunch!

Lovely day it is♥
Just the kind of environment I ♥ Me like like!
Ello world♥
In Fortnums "where our expertise is still a family tradition"
Cosy interior, the perfect place for couple who're seeking out for a nice lovey-dovey ambience♥ They cater for private functions too, especially for wedding! If I ever wed in Melbourne, this would be the perfect haven for it♥
As usual, the boyf is against all sorts of make up! Being the tom boy of the house who is always a noob when it comes to make up products, I got worst after being with him!
The impatient brother waiting for his food which explain the obsession towards the iPhone..
The only mistake of the day would be this cup of Raspberry soda that taste nothing of berry but everything of cough syrup I used to had when I was young :( Should had stick to lemonade instead!
Their house famous Ploughman's Lunch that is made up of a selection of fine cheeses, sliced chicken breast, honey ham, homemade relish, pickled onion, sun dried tomatoes, kalamata olives, a side serving of salad & their freshly baked mini loaf! If you're a impatient person, never go for this b'cos MARK MY WORDS, they really baked your mini loaf on the spot when you ordered it so use your brain to figure out the time required for a mini loaf to bake & be served but its neverless superb!
The boyf being a poor fella who couldn't eat beef due to birth date related matters had Chicken Parmigana, a crumbed chicken breast topped with Napoli sauce, ham & cheese served with potato wedges & fresh salad.
My choice of the day: tender slices of roast beef served with thick gravy, roast potatoes, greens & tasty homemade chutney on the side. The gravy was indeed the best I had that taste of brown sauce made up of cranberries & plum. The traditional way just the way I ♥
And their pie is not to be ignored! Chicken & leek pie in creamy sauce, its definitely something you would want to try!
The boyf fooling around with my camera after a wonderful meal♥
Just loves it when the sun rays hits me♥
3.. 2.. 1.. Smile :)
Dessert is a must! Their Pavlova is definitely as good as it looks topped with fresh berries & double whipped cream♥
Being the sucker when it comes to pastries & baked goods, the obvious choice for me would be Devonshire Scones. The scones are so good that I ate both w'out the jam & cream. I'm craving for some nowww!! Someone fed-ex it to me pweassseee...
For desserts, we switched tables to the patio outside to get our fair share of sun & shine♥
My pillar of strength & support.
When you entered my life once again, you made me realize what I was missing out all along, the reason why I had felt empty every now & then b'cos you are the other part of me that made me feel complete♥
I thanked God everyday♥
Time to head up the mountains high above!
Introducing the driver of the day: Edward Cheng, my one & only brother♥
Enjoying the wind♥
While the boyf tries to catch a few minutes of sleep...
Don't we just love the greens?
I definitely do, but I still prefer sandy gold beaches♥
Guess the family enjoyed it as much as I do!
Favorite shot of the day, courtesy of the boyf♥ From the day we held hands & decided to walk down the path as one, our soul, like the shadow above, is connected together as one & not two.
Resting for a moment.. Tired of me dy? There's more to come!
Guess my family are all comedians♥
Bing! Bang! Boom! Too much of No Regrets I guess =_="
Piggy back ride!!!
As brother & sister, we will rule one day won't we? I love you till the end of the earth & my childhood will never be the same w'out you!
The sister-in-law's turn for piggy back ride!
Imagine having dinner on a chair this size & a matching table to the size of the chair!
Couldn't dream of days w'out you from the day you told me you love me & we decided to give this relationship another go.
Too full for another tea-session up above!
And we pay AUS$5 just for this =_=" No idea why we did, maybe we just want to feel what's it like to be at the top of the world, ahem, correction, Melbourne?

[You're my pillar of strength & support & vice-versa, I want to be the same for you. ILY for who you are & despite the dark moments, you showed me the meaning of being strong & faithful to this fragile relationship of ours. The other day when you told me all my flaws meant nothing to you b'cos you love me for who I'm took another portion of my heart away b'cos I finally found someone who love me for who I'm & not for who they want me to be.]

Talking To The Moon by Bruno Mars

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh...
Ahh Ahh...

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

[I know its a hard time for both of us, adapting to all these sudden changes & at the same time, giving this relationship, giving each other the best we have. Deep down in my heart, there's a final wall that you haven't broke through & you know the reason why because it was a wall that you build up & only you could break it. I'm a emotional person & you see me through it all, supporting me & loving me the same all the way, if not trying to be more & more understanding to this emotional rollercoaster ride I'm constantly on. Sometimes I just yearn for more me & you time]

Meat! Meat! MEAT!!!

Sudden craving for meat now. These days I've weird cravings at weird time. The past 2 days were about desserts and the boyf♥ being all sweet went hunting for desserts with me at weird time & places. When it comes to food, he's definitely someone that pampers me with whatever I want to eat. I guess he's feeling guilty for the fact that I lost some weight since being together with him but I'm perfectly fine with the fact that I managed to lost weight! He stuffs me up most of time, 5 meals per day is never good for someone like me! Back to meat, I want something juicy & tender right now, something that will melt in my mouth, that will bring me to paradise the moment it enter my mouth.

If you ever pay a visit to Melbourne, no harm dropping by at The Meat & Wine Co located at South Bank. Was celebrating Bank's birthday when the boyf & his gang decided to have din din over there.
Must order: pork ribs that are slow-cooked in BBQ sauce & finished on a flaming char-grill! It comes in half/full rack, definitely works as one of the perfect appetizer to share :) There's also lamb/beef ribs available.My Monte select of rib-eye. medium done with creamy garlic sauce on the side :) They have a wide variety of sauce & one of it definitely caught the attention of vodka lover out there: blue cheese & vodka that taste really funky & new.
Not a big fan of beef? Give their Lamb Shanks try, cooked in Provencale-style served on champ potato mash & roast vegetables. Didn't manage to get a picture of the Lamd Cutlets which was really good too!
Wanna have chicken or fish instead? Try out their chicken/salmon skewer that comes with steamed rice, teriyaki sauce & lemon wedges. Favorite of the boyf as well♥

And if you're interested in others compared to the usual, go ahead & order their house famous Kangaroo Fillet, recommended to be medium-rare done, served with honey roasted sweet potatoes, pecan & red currant juice! Only Joe was brave enough to try it though!! One of the best part of the restaurant that save lots of brain juice for thinking would be the wine recommendation section on the menu for which wine to go with which food! Save time choosing wine!!

Am hungry already :( And the boyf♥ is working again till God-knows-what-time! Gonna head down to the cafes with the sister & Amelia to get myself something though! I want meat, meat & MEAT for dinner tonight pweaassseeee :)

Life's like ferris wheel.

There's time in life that I can't help asking myself what I want in life but it is never about what I want but what I make out of my own life. There's time when I burden myself with silly thoughts *which happen quite often these days with all the free time I have* and ended up as an emotional wreck. Have you ever feel so lost in life? Have you ever feel that you're losing control of yourself & you're losing grip on what you have plan for your life when sudden unexpected changes plunges into your life?

Making the decision to come back to Malaysia for good was never easy. Life in Melbourne was really good but never something I want. To graduate and spend time & wasting the parents money while I hunt for my perfect, dream job doesn't sounds appeasing to me. And on another thought, I've no idea what my perfect, dream job is about. Coming back to Malaysia, helping out my dad & at the same time, with my own career out there while pursuing a short course to pursue another career in the mean time sounds like the perfect plan to me. But at the same time, I must remind myself that life never goes like how I planned it to be. Life never do. And that's what make life amazing :)

Life have its ups & down & I always believe life's like a ferris wheel ride. You get on a ride the day you were born, riding ups & downs. I don't believe a person could be on a high forever, or the other way round either. And another important thing, if you get down of the ride when you're on the down part, giving up on life just because you're on the bleak, down moment of our life, you will never have the chance to stand back up & be on the high. Have faith in life, have faith in yourself & never give up, that's my belief & what I'm always trying to do.

One thing constant about life would be changes.

[One of the best thing that happen to me was that fate brought you to my life again, making the path on the front seems easier with your support behind, walking hand in hand down the new path God have in mind for us.]

21st Birthday♥

First, I would love to thanks for all the long distance calls, sms, tweets & facebook messages. There's not much of the kind of celebration you people are thinking off for me this year but more to some good quality time with my love ones♥ Something different, something memorable. Some things are meant to be simple yet the best♥ Losing interest in most things I used to be interested in yet I think, its time to start searching for new interests for another new stage of my life. Growing through life I put it, not going through life!

Slept pretty early on the birthday night eve, boyfriend made me switch off my phone & spent some quality time together, talking the night away. Alcohol being still the small part of me, spend the evening drinking with the family & the surprising part, the boyf who hated alcohol decided to join in as he was aiming to make me drunk for unknown reasons. His plan to surprise me failed because I managed to spoil it & a compromise is made between us regarding my birthday *which will be revealed in a month, maybe!*

Prepared for the day outing with the boyf. Just some simple quality time between the both of us♥
Brought me to Tomodachi @ Melbourne Central for late lunch. Was craving for Jap. Sushi as appetizers♥
His main, pork ramen minus ALL veges! He's definitely not a big fan of greens!
My soft shell crab bento set which portion was huge. Talk about stuffing myself up! Spend the remaining day shopping but ended up buying almost nothing. Even the boyf was surprised. Headed back to his crib for an evening nap =P Both of us are such lazy fellas, nearly missed waking up for dinner with the family at night!

Start off with a bottle of sparkling red from Gosling Creek. Taste really fruity & tangy, just the drink to get your appetite going! One of the thing I'm going to miss the most when I'm gonna be back in KL will be driving for hours with the brother to go wine shopping at wine yards! And if you guys ever pay a visit to Melbourne, wineyards located near Lorne are definitely worth dropping by for good quality fresh wines & its effing cheap!
Dinner was once again at Crystal Jade as the family & boyf are all big fans of Chinese food. Started off with winter melon soup as appetizer♥
3-cup-chicken in yam basket♥
Deep fried golden prawn (salt egg = gold)
Stir fried beans in minced pork & black beans
The family favorite, steam fish (I've no idea what's the name of the fish). Its an all time favorite of all my family members but remember, it always taste the best if only the fish is alive & swimming before its to be steam!! Fishes that are already dead tends to taste less fresh & the meat tends to lost its tender! Crystal Jade fishes are good♥
The family♥
Big kiss for the one & only brother♥
And my funky sister in law whom I heart so much♥
And the latest member of the family: Mr. Tan =_="
Kisses for my wine toooooo♥ Wine make my day *most of the time*
As usual, the boyf can talk for hours with the brother. They even talk on phone for hours when they are away from each other =_="
Thinking of what wishes to make when the cake arrives!
Make a wish♥
Oppps! Its more to I'm making a list of wissheess♥
Blow! Blow!
And the cake ceremony is officially over =X
The boyf never gets tired of bullying me. According to him, he has to bully me everyday in order for him to be happy. Knife to him!
Birthday cake for the year: Hazelnut Chocolate Sponge with Ferrero Rochers or something. Picked this because its the boyf favorite♥ A million thanks to Judy who had it special made♥
Yummmmyyyy♥
As usual, its hard to get my name right. Up until now, I had no idea why I insisted on a Cristine with H!
Headed back to the boyf's crib in the city. Staying over at his place for few nights to help him get packed up.
Camwhorreeee♥
The sweetest girl on earth feels so guilty for not spending my b'day with me that she rushes down to the city right after her last paper. Had Brunch at Cervo for some catching up time♥
Sunny yet cold day!
B'day presents from her. She know me well enough♥
Loving it to the max♥
Complimentary birthday drink♥
Soo's big breakfast!
My fish & chip in beer batter♥
Puffy eyes..
And the best friend who never fail to make my day♥
Shopping & flowers as the tradition..
Thanks my love♥

Its pretty hectic these days. Helping my brother & sister in law in packing, getting stuffs sent back to Malaysia as they had decided to migrate back to KL. Gonna be MIA again! Till then, goodbye♥